what the fuck .

my parents decided to disable my phone because i didnt watch hell's kitchen last night. this is freekin' gay. i can live without my phone but i will not put up with this because it's the most stupidest reason.

my favorite passage from my favorite poem <3

For the moon never beams without bringing me dreams

Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;

And the stars never rise but I feel the bright eyes

Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;

And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side

Of my darling- my darling- my life and my bride,

In the sepulchre there by the sea,

In her tomb by the sounding sea.

-Edgar Allen Poe , " Annabel Lee "

blehh.

so there's this guy. i thought he was my friend. but now, he hardly ever talks to me. before, he would always talk to me first before i even have a chance to move the cursor even an inch. now, i havent talked to him in weeks. i just dont know what i did wrong.

thursday, july 2, 2009 <3

so yesterday was a pretty awesome day(: i went out with my ex boyfriend who is now my boyfriend again <3 i woke up around seven. i walked around the house with my heart beating faster and faster with each passing minute. around nine, he and his mom came to pick me up. we went to townsquare and watched transformers. i swear megan fox got hotter xD. ( no homo ) we got a sandwich to share for lunch. after we ate, we were sitting in the park together. he kept kissing my neck which made me blush like MAD ! and he kept trying to get a picture of my blushing ! such a meanie :p pwuahaha(: around four, his mom came to pick us up. i went to his house because my parents weren't home. they don't even know that i went out yesterday xD lmfao. so when we got to his house, he took a shower. i just stayed in his bed texting my friend miyu(: ( he has a super soft bed ! im like soooo jealous ! it's like a cloud ! xD lmfao ) anyways, miyu wanted a picture of us together. i asked mark if he wanted to take a picture but he didnt want to. so i was more determined than ever to get a picture of him when he was least expecting it. and of course, one of us together too(: <3 so we were on youtube looking up funny videos and dance videos. i was sitting in his lap. so i borrowed his sister's camera and put it behind the computer. then i put it on the self-timer thingyy. but then the FLASH went off ! so he asked me what was that. and i said nothing. and he was like, " my ass ! " and then i grabbed the camera and ran for it. he chased me to the top of the stairs and grabbed from around the waist and started pulling me back to his room. but i grabbed onto the railings :D but he's strong so he ended up dragging me down the hall back to his room. but then i grabbed the door frame and he had to pull SUPER hard to get me into his room. we fell on the bed and he started to tickle me ! but i knocked him onto the bed and i sat on him. like straddling xD then he knocked me down and straddled me. and that went on for at least another five minutes til he surrendered :D so i gave his sister back her camera and told her to hide it from him(: then we had dinner ( PIZZA :D ) and then his mom dropped me off around nine. and so this morning, he texted me saying that he had the camera and that he was gonna delete the picture and i was like " nooooo ! at least send it to me first ! " and he e-mailed it to me so now im happy(:

parents overeacting.

tomorrow, is my friend, trisha's birthday. and my parents aren't letting me go because they're scared that there's gonna be a drive by because they keep the garage door open for people to hang out in. so right now, i can't go, but i'm going to beg soooo much because i really want to go. i haven't seen trisha since her last birthday last year. i only see her once a year. twice if i'm lucky. my best guy friend is also gonna be there and i haven't seen him in two years. anyways, i'm determined to go so i'm going to do a lot of sucking up.